Thursday, February 4, 2010

To my Valentine


Blame it on the mellow season or the inevitability of my approaching flight from the confines of this place, on the propitious date that shall be upon us in a matter of days or on the bounteous moon that is shining with more than its usual fervor tonight. But in indicting them for the genesis of this letter , you will be gravely mistaken. For the instigation of this communique lies deeper in the mists of time, the mists that part deferentially under the intensity of your radiance so very often, yet so much darker, dreary and desolate for the rarity with which your countenance has been kind enough to exhilarate those who pine for that one glimpse of the face, the face that, a millennium ago, could have set sail a thousand ships. I do not profess to be an authority on romantic magniloquence but I could, in that first fleeting meeting of the eyes, Oh those eyes!, I could understand the helplessness that Byron envisaged when he wrote those immortal lines:

Thus much and more, and yet thou lov'st me not,
And never wilt, Love dwells not in our will
Nor can I blame thee, though it be my lot
To strongly, wrongly, vainly, love thee still.

And ever since that one propinquitous moment, it has been impossible to restrain the flights of imagination, extraordinarily vivid in all their brilliance during promenades through the copper-hued drizzle of dried leaves, transmuting into something so surreal when you breeze in silently as I make my way past the crossroads, the lonely forlorn figure trudging through the white clouds hanging from the tranquil boughs above. And even as I walk ,engaged as I am, in the oft repeated and severely practiced conversations, all confessing to the irreversible enchantment , some professing undying love , the fraction that is still grounded in physical reality bitterly yearns for that elusive next encounter that providence has planned for us. The impulsive thought of forcing its hands has, not infrequently, crept up on the bleak, tempestuous horizon but as often slinks back just as it seems that the sun will finally come out. The perennial winter that I find myself in, though, is not ungrateful in this state of limbo, for the ethereal promise manifested in you. And you seem to be an enigma too pure and divine to desecrate. Better to pay unilateral obeisance to the flawlessness of the deity than to drag her into the dirt of human existence as a mortal being.

And so have I fallen , as is said colloquially, truly madly deeply in love. Not with you. The pedestal on which you are is as forbidding as the figure in repose on it is alluring. But an idea of you.

And this letter is addressed to that idea.

Yours ensorcelled,
DJ



9 comments:

alza-en-amor said...

although love is complicated, as I have heard and learnt over the years, still it could have done without the complexity of your GRE-vocabulary ;)

All in all, a nice alternative viewpoint :)

Pushkar said...

damn, i cant understand a whole sentence.....sorry not reading it, hawthorne is better

avb said...
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avb said...

if, god forbid, your valentine's vocab is as good as mine, he/she will only be able to understand the sentence " NOT WITH YOU".

Hobgoblin said...

isn't it a few millenia ago not a millenium ago that a thousand ships set sail and anyway that was all for the wrong reasons :)

jhinujha said...

@SDM what wrong reason? Wasnt beauty, Helen's curse?

Mithrandir said...

@DJ: Troy's rather.

Would the author advise against getting to know more about the enigma - and move on if it turns out to be unreal? Agreed that the dream is shattered but there remains the promise of a goddess whose real self is equivalent to the altar-self. And isn't this promise worthy of even a hundred lost mirages?

What follows is no mere query but is the second time i seek thy council in these matters. And trust me when i say that these (in your post) are the exact lines i have been thinking along - you poured it in adorable words all so easily!

Amritha R said...

It is said that when you fall in love a little of it is with yourself. Indeed if you wish to worship the idea of so lofty a pedestal that she is on, isn't part of it also love for yourself for being able to construct such a high pedestal for her?
What if the goddess also confesses her "love for you". Are you saying that it would then bring her down from her pedestal to your level? What if it raises you up to hers? Or perhaps it results in a scaling of even greater heights by both of you?

Eggjhacktlee Arbeet said...

despite the showing-off of your verbal prowess, i must admit it is beautifully written